Well, I guess I will jump on the blogging band wagon...why not?
I never thought I'd be a blogger, but I think this might be good therapy for me.
I think that seeing my thoughts in front of me might help. I'm heading face first into a shit storm and I think I need to button up. My mom just found out she has cancer. It's in her lung and spread to her shoulder. I took her for a PET scan today to see if she has it anywhere else. I never even heard of a PET scan until last week. I think I'll be learning alot of things in the coming months that I hoped to never know. She'll have to have a biopsy of the mass in her lung. The funny thing about it is that I am not as freaked out as I think I should be. I mean, Why am I not a wreck? I should be in constant tears....At least I think I should be.....shouldn't I? I keep thinking that if I'm not that freaked out, then maybe it's because there isn't anything to freak out about....Maybe I have this "sense" that everything is going to be ok? Maybe I'll just have another big bowl of denial.
I have a beautiful daughter. She's the light of our lives. She's 19 mo. old and getting busier and talking more everyday. She's so funny, I still can't believe she's so big so quick.
I have a great husband too. I don't honestly know what I would do without him.
He takes such good care of us...not a jealous bone in his body, funny as anything. Absolutely my very best friend.
We have a dog too. His name is Rufus. He's a puggle. he's also a pain in the ass.
but he grows on me a little more everyday. That's it for now, time to start dinner.
Thanks for reading!
2 comments:
You are an incredibly strong woman and you will survive this and come out stronger.
Talk to Julie and I think she will say the same- Hope is the strongest medicine. Keep your love for her flowing and she will do fine.
Somehow you did find a kooky and totally loving husband. You are a super lucky person.
Continue to write, it will make you feel better and find support. It may be better for me to read instead of talking to you as I am crying for you.
As you know-Call me any day at any time that you need anything.
Much love- Jennifer
Isn't this a great way to see what people are really thinking.
I love you Bonnie
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