Saturday, May 3, 2008

I woke up this morning to find Mr. and Mrs. Mallard sitting under my birdbath in the side yard. It's spring!!!
About 10 years ago I had 5 ducks, 6 chickens 2 Peking geese 2 rabbits 3 cats and a dog. Every spring around this time we would have Mr. and Mrs. Mallard come over in the morning and spend the day with the ducks in the kiddie pool we had sunken into the ground in our side yard. We always knew spring was here when they showed up. Well... it's years later and the animals are all gone and I've even moved to a house up the street...and those mallards show up here still every year...Now in MY yard. weird huh? So every morning I make sure I open a window and give them some bread or cereal or whatever I have laying around. They sit in the puddles at the end of my driveway occasionally sauntering out of the way for a passing car. I love that they still show up. It reminds me of happy times. We even had a mama and 5 ducklings stuck in our fenced in back yard a couple years ago. That was new, never had that before. I have no idea how they got in or where they come from.
On a similar note we also have bumblebees in our kitchen around the same time that the ducks show up. That's been going on here in my house since before I was born. ( I live in the house my grandparents built) Every year one will show up banging into the kitchen window trying frantically to get out. We just open the window and let them go. Sometimes we have 2 or 3. The first spring my husband and I lived here I came home from work and listened to him tell of how he found a huge bumblebee in the kitchen so he killed it....I was absolutely horrified! Of course he had no idea what the bumblebees meant or that they are a spring tradition....He found out and I am happy to say that no more bumblebees are killed at my house. They are let out like they're supposed to be. Happy spring!

Friday, May 2, 2008


Well, I guess I will jump on the blogging band wagon...why not?
I never thought I'd be a blogger, but I think this might be good therapy for me.
I think that seeing my thoughts in front of me might help. I'm heading face first into a shit storm and I think I need to button up. My mom just found out she has cancer. It's in her lung and spread to her shoulder. I took her for a PET scan today to see if she has it anywhere else. I never even heard of a PET scan until last week. I think I'll be learning alot of things in the coming months that I hoped to never know. She'll have to have a biopsy of the mass in her lung. The funny thing about it is that I am not as freaked out as I think I should be. I mean, Why am I not a wreck? I should be in constant tears....At least I think I should be.....shouldn't I? I keep thinking that if I'm not that freaked out, then maybe it's because there isn't anything to freak out about....Maybe I have this "sense" that everything is going to be ok? Maybe I'll just have another big bowl of denial.
I have a beautiful daughter. She's the light of our lives. She's 19 mo. old and getting busier and talking more everyday. She's so funny, I still can't believe she's so big so quick.
I have a great husband too. I don't honestly know what I would do without him.
He takes such good care of us...not a jealous bone in his body, funny as anything. Absolutely my very best friend.
We have a dog too. His name is Rufus. He's a puggle. he's also a pain in the ass.
but he grows on me a little more everyday. That's it for now, time to start dinner.
Thanks for reading!